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• And the rubber band goes back on
  on Jun 4, 2011 in depression self harm anxiety friend anger
  Last night I tried so hard, I just couldn't do it. My stress ball wasn't enough, I couldn't think of any other solutions. I went for my rubber band. I made it 22 days. I know I am not perfect, I expected there could be a time where I would go back to...
• Worse things have happened to me
  on Jun 3, 2011 in college positive friend sick
  I don't know why I did it last night but I told JJ how I feel about him. The feeling isn't mutual. It sucks but what ever. I feel better now that he knows and I don't have to hide it. I am surprised I am not upset. Last night I was but...
• Graduated Whoo!
  on Jun 3, 2011
  I did it, I did it! I finally finished. It feels good to be done.I am going to see Kung Fu Panda tonight. Then I am going to get my belly button pierced tomorrow. I move out in 19 days. Nothing else to really say. I am really enjoying summer.
• Everyday is a challenge, I just barely succeed today
  on Jun 1, 2011 in music school anxiety medicine
  So you know how when you are playing spider solitar you can get a hint for a move? Well I was curious if you could just go through the entire game that way, I didn't win but it lets you have as many hints as you want.Today I downloaded Chris Webby's...
• Fireworks, groping, and trespassing in a hot tub
  on May 31, 2011 in fireworks depression fun anxiety love friend
  Tonight was so much fun. JJ and some of our friends were all hanging out. First we got dinner at one of my favorite local resturants. Then we went and lit of fireworks (they are illegal where we live, it didn't stop us though). One went 30 feet...
• Tired but doing well
  on May 31, 2011 in depression self harm snowboard school anxiety summer
  I am fried from doing so much calculus already today. I am so close to the end, I see the light at the end of the tunnel I just can't get there fast enough.I am starting to feel better. I smiled and laughed so much, and it was real. I didn't have to...
• Better
  on May 30, 2011 in depression flower anxiety friend boyfriend
  Last night went better. I know my body and mind can handle half a dosage, I still want to work my way off of it though. I don't like it, I know it will stop working eventually, and I am afraid of it getting stolen from my dorm.I did a lot of things t...
• I never wanna take ambien again
  on May 29, 2011 in dream
  I don't want to take ambien anymore. I am scared of what it will make me do with out being aware of it. Also the dreams I have been having is getting to be to much. I really thought my dad came home from work 3 weeks early because he was so worried a...
• Seriously considered suicide last night
  on May 28, 2011 in side affects depression over dose anxiety
  Last night my mom and I had a pretty bad scare. I can't remember most of it, so here are the facts.I took my prescribed dosage of my medications before going to bed last nightI have been really stressed all week from trying to finish up sch...
• Wording
  on May 27, 2011 in depression self harm anxiety medicine
  The phrase "depression is treatable" is confusing to me. Like energy, depression can not be destroyed. We are stuck struggling through it the rest of our lives. So really when we are being treated doctors are just trying to make life livabl...

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