Cue Monster
on Nov 6, 2009 in dreams secondary infertility Infertility Donor Egg The post I didn't want to write. I don't know where to go from here.  You see, there's comfort in having a plan. Even if it's the best or worst plan in the world, HAVING a plan gives you something to hold on to when you are trying to keep your...

The last chapter...
on Nov 3, 2009 in Recurrent Pregnancy Loss secondary infertility Reflections deFET #1 Infertility miscarriage Donor Egg For the inquiring minds: I tested this morning. I stared back at nothing. Not even a whisper of a line. Please, do not tell me it's too early. It's not. So this is what it feels like to really fail at something. To exhaust every path, to endure ev...

A swine Halloween
on Nov 2, 2009 in secondary infertility Halloween deFET #1 Infertility Donor Egg Swine flu or no swine flu, we managed to have Halloween here at the BagMomma house after all. It's been a long week, and I am not lying when I tell you I had almost forgotten I had my FET last Tuesday. David being sick was all the diversion I needed...

I Want Candy
on Oct 28, 2009 in Illness deFET #1 Infertility Donor Egg H1N1 Day two of bedrest. So with the incredibily suck-ass news yesterday, I forgot to update you all on the flu situation here at the house. David, yes, is an H1N1 victim (as is a host of kids in his school). This morning, as I was sipping coffee and ea...

The Lone Ranger
on Oct 27, 2009 in secondary infertility you've got to be kidding deFET #1 Infertility Donor Egg My bad luck follows me like a stray dog. They had to thaw all 7 remaining embryos, and of those, only ONE made it through the thaw.  My clinic has a 70% thaw rate.  There I go beating the crappy odds once again. I'm disappointed, sad, and...

Down with the sickness
on Oct 26, 2009 in Illness I had a bad day deFET #1 Infertility H1N1 FET Because, really... could this week even be more drama and suspense filled? Little D has the flu. His symptoms started last night and evolved into something closely resembling H1N1. They are treating it as that because, well... it's too early to be t...

Zultan, the Magnificent
on Oct 25, 2009 in Hope Fun Halloween This weekend, we went to a Halloween party hosted by my neighbor, who is the ultimate party hostess. Her house, decorated inside and out is a Halloween showpiece. She spends weeks (yes, I said WEEKS) prepping for the holiday. I wish you could all see...

Breathe In...
on Oct 21, 2009 in deFET #1 Donor Egg Well, this FET cycle sure snuck up on me. Lining check today and all is well.  Lining is a very cushy 13mm (which is way thicker than last time, I'm not sure if that makes a difference).  Bloodwork also came in right on target. Trans...

Me, me, me
on Oct 19, 2009 in meme I have a backlog of memes I've been tagged for in the last couple of weeks.  My blogging friend Melissa tagged me for this one.  It's sort of a photo-centric one about your favorite things.  This blog needs a pick-me-up post, so be for...

Compassion
on Oct 15, 2009 in Recurrent Pregnancy Loss Reflections Infertility miscarriage October 15th is like a ticking time bomb for me. It's a reminder that I am still in the trenches of infertility and loss.  I will always be no matter where my journey ends. I've blogged on this day over the years, and each time I do...&nbs...