On my own
on Nov 15, 2009 in tired counseling War apartment furniture lost marriage I moved out. Not all is lost, we are still going to be attending marriage counseling. There is still hope.... I hope. Cleve has a lot of changes to make. He will be attending a ton of different types of therapies, a few of them focusing on PTSD. He n...

on Nov 14, 2009Big changes and not enough time to write about them. I'm alive and well, though, and will hopefully get a few minutes soon to update everyone on my life. As always, thank you for the support.

Faces of War Friday- Christine Rau
on Nov 13, 2009 in christine rau friday faces of war Well first I want to start off by saying that I am not like many of the readers or submitters of this blog… I am not a wife of a marine and I have not experienced many of the occurrences of military life… however I do believe that I am starting t...

I want to scream
on Nov 8, 2009 in ptsd divorce blood War Thoughts britney spears tragedy marriage Of course I couldn't stay away from my blog for long. My boss gave me the day off (Though I'll probably go in for a minute anyway...going stir crazy) so I have a minute of alone time to think.Cleve was going back and forth between being nice and mean...

on Nov 7, 2009Last night I had to stay with friends for my own safety. He got way out of control after I left to get hair dye with friends, so I opted to stay away. This morning I came home to my clothes in the yard with beer bottles cracked on top of them. After...

Faces of War Friday - Heather Burgo
on Nov 7, 2009 in Heather Burgo friday faces of war I met John 5 years ago, in the fall of my 17th birthday. I didn’t realize that I was attracted to him until after we’d known each other for a few months, and he didn’t express his feelings for me in full until almost a year after we met. He w...

Stopped Trying
on Nov 6, 2009 in counseling frustrating I've stopped trying. I have nothing left in me to give if nothing is going to come back in return. We have counseling on the 13th and it will have to save us.The money he overdrew was in our extra account, luckily. It's just extremely upsetting when...

on Nov 4, 2009He freaking overdrafted the account so he could buy his stupid toys. I am SO sick of this SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I work to pay for his mess ups. Please shoot me.

the ZEN book
on Nov 2, 2009 in ZEN I wanted to share this. Every night before bed I close my eyes and pick a spot in this book called, "The ZEN book". Whatever page I land on I read and try to figure out how I can apply it to what just happened that day. Then I try to use it to better...

Progress
on Nov 1, 2009 in halloween blood work School progress costumes chores We went out last night. It ended up being a lot of driving around in the end, but it was nice to get out of the house. Cleve enjoyed himself, which was good. We dropped by the Birmingham block party. That was insanity. However, Cleve mentioned he wou...