A Little Older, A Little Wiser Blog Posts

  • Danger
    on Nov 22, 2012
    I'm sick of being sick. I have an exam on Monday and I've done nothing for it. I just want to stay in bed and listen to the Chili Peppers. But shit, I start my new job on Saturday. Sort of told her that I'm a master of excel. I'm not. Filing for mini...
  • Closing Curtains
    on Nov 22, 2012
    You don't want to see me, you don't want to talk to me. Your head's a mess and in that mess you lost me. It's like you've forgotten I exist. Forgotten I have feelings too. Tonight I'm crying.
    on Nov 20, 2012
    I have a girlfriend, but I also have Lucy Spraggan. She's my not so secret love. Seriously, is this not perfection? Me and Katy are going to kidnap her and keep her in the cupboard under the stairs.Undermyunndermyundermyundermyundermyundermyundermyun...
  • Fucking
    on Nov 19, 2012
    I invited you over, you stayed the night, You took all your clothes off and slept in my bed. That means I can call you my girlfriend, right? Believe me, that was quite a sight, I must have seen what lay ahead When I invited you over to stay the night...
  • This Is How It Goes
    on Nov 19, 2012
    I just don't think I'll last the year,I've fought this battle to the end,You're better off without me dear. Don't book two flights to Latvia, I shan't be able to attend. I just don't think I'll last the year. Don't stray from our plans, or shed...
  • Titanium
    on Nov 19, 2012
    I'd been sitting outside by myself for a few minutes, just soaking up my new surroundings and working my way through a bag of tobacco. Between myself and the entrance to the ward was a big tree. I pretended I was invisible. A woman in her early forti...
  • Snippets
    on Nov 19, 2012
    I want to be in Lisbon. Or just somewhere you are. I want to stand on the windowsill of an eighteen storey building and fly. You shoot me down, but I won't fall. Maybe falling is what it's all about. I want to know that sensation. Do you really...
  • Memories
    on Nov 19, 2012
    She slung her bag over her shoulder as the bell rang and made a bee line for the front desk at reception. The staff knew her well; she had weekly doctors appointments which spanned for hours, the receptionists just handed her the sign-out book and a...
  • Lets Relive Everything
    on Nov 19, 2012
    I trawled up the stairs and opened the door to my bedroom. It still wasn't a bedroom I was used to walking into, even though I'd been there over three months now. It didn't feel like it belonged to me, even the white of the walls seemed unfamiliar. M...
  • Dylan's First Chapter
    on Nov 19, 2012
    She looked him up and down, her perfect little boy all dressed and ready for his first day at school. Personally she thought that four was too young; she was a big believer in freedom and thought children should be allowed to enjoy their youth for as...
  • Family Values
    on Nov 19, 2012
    I come from a family of no divorces. The pressure crushes me frequently as I dream of settling down, but know that with the psychiatric diagnoses I've accumulated so far, and the symptoms they boast, no marriage could ever carry me through to the day...
  • The Wine List
    on Nov 19, 2012
    Nineteen - Rich in sweet apricot flavours, Balanced by sharp, lime rind acidity, With honey, spice and a crisp, clean finish: The wine list's a better poet than me.
  • Progression
    on Nov 17, 2012
    I'm writing this on a train. I was thinking about how much things have changed in such a short time. In July I fell apart and you and the people at Stump Lane helped to patch me back together. In August I developed a fear of the outside world. In Sep...
  • Stump Lane
    on Nov 12, 2012
    It was a strange time. An upside-down time. An uneasy time. But it sure makes for good writing. ‘I just had the silent dinner experience. I don’t think she likes me.’ 1000 words to go.
  • Running On Reserve
    on Nov 6, 2012
    I feel horrific. All I want is sleep. I wake up every day feeling exhausted to a new level. I've never been a person who needs early nights like this. I don't know where my energy went.
  • Poetry To A Beat
    on Oct 29, 2012
    Today Mr Next Door knocked on the door, but I was naked so I quickly put some clothes on and went downstairs but by the time I got there he was at the end of the drive. I shut the door again and hid. He was putting all the bin bags sitting out the fr...
  • 'Time' Doesn't Look Like A Word Anymore
    on Oct 27, 2012
    I love that I can write things here and you find them without me having to say anything. I'm really awake because I slept til 5pm today. I didn't mean to, I kept snoozing the alarm. I had some strange dreams last night. I dreamt that my skin was craw...
  • The Knife In The Oyster
    on Oct 26, 2012
    I'm in love with you. I can't promise the future, I can't promise perfection, because we're us, and I'm me and who knows what will happen. But in my heart, I am sure. I'm in love with you Sophie Shirley. And I hope you're in love with me too.
  • Youth
    on Oct 15, 2012
    "The goal of therapy is to make one happy. What is the point of that? Happy people are not interesting. Better to accept the burden of unhappiness and try to turn it into something worthwhile, poetry or music or painting."Coetzee, you put the thought...
  • Lorraine
    on Sep 13, 2012
    LORRAINEI know that you've known nothing like this painAnd nothing brings you pleasure any more.The world would be a lesser place Lorraine.It seems as though all hope went down the drain,You've taken to just lying on the floor.I know that you've know...